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Silence

2011-08-28T12:03:00.001+08:00

for those who actually read this space, im too busy to blog and ive decided to just stick to tumblr for the time being. pardon my hiatus.

love you all still :D

Update

2011-08-02T23:28:00.003+08:00

paiseh for no updates. my lappy crashed a few weeks back and i lost my photoshop software and now i've no idea how to resize pics for blogging and collage-ing them. bahhh.

anw, its 1 week before school term begins again. seems like yesterday when the holidays began. sigh. coming monday, i'll officially be a year 3 student (oh god, even typing that i feel old already). feels like i'm a senior but technically, i still feel like a freshie because i am not involved in any school activity. now i really regret not joining any FOCs in year 1. perhaps uni life would have been much much more exciting. boohoo.

this whole 2 month break has been really awesome for me. albeit short but i'm glad i managed to squeeze two trips into it and with no trips to look forward to, i actually dont have any motivation to study hard. needa to plan a trip soon. heh. jetstar, pls come up with some promo for taiwan/hk!! :)

spent the last few weeks of my holiday working non-stop. not that i'm complaining, since more shift means more money. but im kinda tired out and all i badly need is some rest. looking forward to friday, just like all working peeps out there, bcos that marks the end of work for me for this week at least and plus i'll be meeting a few lovely people for steamboat at vivo. hehe. can't wait XD

tata !

USA (III) - CA, San Francisco (SF)

2011-07-06T23:46:00.026+08:00

haiiiii allll. *waves* i know im a very slow-like-a-tortoise blogger, and part (iii) of my usa trip is finally up! resizing pics and uploading pics's a bitch mann. anyone knows of any software i can use to resize pic at a faster rate? =S

anyhow. so after a week or so in madison, we were finally gonna embark on our HOLIDAY road-trip :D cause spencer had work when we were in madison so it wasn't exactly considered a holiday for him, at least.

on the day we were about to leave the house for the coach, spencer was punished to wash the dishes.
okay, no. i was joking. hahaha. he's just being mr nice by washing up whatever we used.

just before we left, i decided to snap a few shots of his place: (very messy tho.)
living room.
kitchen
rooms
and more rooms. its very messy in the above pics, but when i came back after 2 weeks, the house was super duper neat. very impressed O.O
i don't know why there's like 4 eggs there. hahaha. in any case, their house is kinda scary to live in. why? bcos food always goes missing in the fridge. let me explain, spencer labeled his eggs (1-18) and we took 2 to cook? so 1 and 2 were 'gone'. but when we next take out the egg tray, number 13 was gone??
i believe there's an in-house food thief? tsktsk. and half of our cabbage was eaten/gone when we didn't even touch it. how can?? -shakes head-
why so many coins ? hahaha. its all spencer's 'savings'. their money domain for coins's kinda weird. they have like quarter dollar? which is 0.25 cents? in sg we'll give one 20 cent coin + one 5 cent coin yes? they use ONE coin for 25 cents/quarter dollar. americans... die die must be different only. huai needa be so cheem .

that's not the point anw (oops =P ) , the coins were really impt!! bcos we needed it for things like using the washing machine / dryer/ parking. haha. good thing we took many many quarter dollars before leaving for SF.

so at ard 2pm we headed off to take a coach down to Milwaukee, cause we were flying from there.
we had a great adventure, walking from the airport to the hotel. why? we thought the hotel was 300m away from the airport as stated on its web. but turned out that it wasn't the airport we were at. -.-
so we ended up walking 2-3km? lugging our luggages!?!?! almost died. but i take solace in the fact that at least the weather isn't like in sg. its more of like 14-16 degrees? so even with the sun, it wasn't THAT bad. actually, come to think of it. i miss US a lot. :c

after checking into the motel, we headed for some FOOD. DENNY'S! its kinda like the 24hr macs we have in sg? they have denny's everywhere. and they serve slow-food, unlike macs which serves fast-food. okay. lame. hahahah. ignore that.

so here's what we ordered~
their serving's kinda small as compared to perkins tho. but perkins taste better!

we were even able to share a apple crumble for dessert! heh.

DAY 1

so the next morning , we checked out and headed to the airport to board our train towards San Francisco (SF)! :DD
after a 4hours + flight, we finally arrived at SF !
crazy boy wanted to try lugging both luggages. he looked so happy doing it. haha.

went to rent our car and off we go!

first stop was to our motel to put down our stuffs!
really love the landscape in SF .

very interesting advert in a tourist brochure. hmmm~~~
decided to go grab a bit before heading off to chinatown/union square area. and we stopped by a cafe near our motel for yummeh food. looks good? ;P
see that mashed up thingy there? its actually house fries! SUPER YUMMEHHH :O
this is our hotel! niceeee?

i didnt take any pics of the rooms cause it was so small once our luggages were in, there's literally no place to walk alrd. haha.
one pretty pic before we head out for more walk. heh.
aren't their housing pretty? so much better than our hdb :C
i cant rmb the name of this street, but we got here cause i wanted to get my dr martens and this was where google brought me too.

then it was bus to union square (where the shopping paradise is) . cause chinatown was just near union sq, we decided to get off and walk a lil.
their shops are huge-ass. really. see gap? haha.

no prize for guessing - chinatown!

went for dinner at far east cafe , which was reallyyyyyyyy sexpensive. but food was not too bad. but still, 50 bucks for a meal for 2 is kinda =S
we cabbed back after dinner and rested for the night. and why did we cab back? bcos it was too freaking hell cold we couldnt bear walking all the way back to the bus stop and taking a bus back to our hotel. haha. phails i know. but seriously, not funny walking around (12degrees) + wind blowing straight into your face. i felt like my face was falling off my face, literally. haha.

DAY 2
fisherman's wharf day! ^^

two ninjas! heh.
the receptionist from our hotel recommended this cafe for breakfast and we were out to try it that day. apparently they make their coffee cup by cup, from grinding the beans and all? that's the reason why its so good. but you gotta wait a lil while for your coffee. spencer tried it and he said it was really gooodddd. worth the wait ;)

chicken caesar wrap
panini? haha. i cant rmb.
the deco for the cafe's kinda nice. me likes it.
after brunch it was to fisherman's wharf!
it was all public transport for us in sf, even tho we had the car. why? bcos park lots are damn hard to find. hahahaha. we weren't willing to lose our parking lot near our hotel. =S

first stop ! aquarium bay! :D
can't help it. the flowers were blooming so prettily that i find it a waste not taking any pics with it. haha.
it wasnt exactly fantastic ? but it wasnt too bad la. underwater world at sentosa's better tho. =p

STAR- FISH. (literally) hahaha!
after the aquarium, we had some time to kill before we go for the cruise ride, so we just walked around aimlessly, enjoying the scenery. BUTTTTT, i tell you, i was freezing to death. its alrd so cold in the city, and what's more when we're so near the sea isn't it? haha.

ohyes! they actually sell strawberries like that? like ONE strawberry kind? super cool and its SOOOOO GOOD.
we got 4 to share. really really yummy!! :DD

cruise time :

the next few pictures, i took them with my life. seriously. it was bloody cold outside on the deck + the wind. omg. wanna die only.

the golden gate bridge. its kinda like our merlion in sg? so for sf its the golden gate bridge and alcatraz. but damn sad case, we didnt manage to buy the tix for alcatraz cause its always SOLD OUT by the time we get there :C

alcatraz island. we only like cruised by it? :(
and after the war with the cold wind, it was time to fill our tummy again. we decided on cha-pa-lang food. cause we wanted to try seafood at fisherman's wharf. heh.
first stop - clam chowder.
DAMN GOOD . (Y)
seagulls on the road. cute or what?

french sourdough bread. shaped like a turtle. so cutezxzxz. but we still had to eat it up. haha. and on the top left, you actually see a alligator sourdough bread (HUGE ASS) . no idea who actually buys them mann.this small turtle alrd cost like 4.95 usd. imagina the price of the alligator? hahaha.

we also tried this crabmeat thingy. DAMN SHIOKS SIA. its like real crab meat!! minus the digging out the meat from the crab part. haha. for lazy pple.
all the picture looks so nice, i wanna be there again :( boohoo.
ohyea, forgot to mention, very nice but also very cold. brrr...

after walking by the sea, we headed over to some chocolate cafe to get some ice cream (spencer was craving for it) and hot chocolate (cause of the cold weather).

they even have the chocolate making process inside the cafe for showcase to the public. cool uh?
after dessert, it was time for dinner. (okay, i think we got our meal schedule wrong, but its a holiday. forgive us, stomach. ) hahaha. we took a long to decide on which restaurant to walk into cause we dunno where's good and every restaurant's like poaching us like a prey. =S

we finally decided on one with the cheapest menu. hahaha.

spen: where's my food?

seafood salad as appetizer.
dungness crab (Y)
fish w rice?

it was a really fulfilling meal anw, plus the crab was sedap!
after dinner, i went to buy a north face jacket bcos i couldn't tahan the cold any longer. then, it was back to the hotel to rest for the night again.

DAY 3
it's our last day in sf before we leave for L.A !

my shuai ge:

brunch at the same cafe!haha. we're boring like that.

me likes this photo. cute! haha.

it was off to chinatown again bcos we're bored like that. no la. haha. we were suppose to go over to look for the legendary yummy egg tart, but unfortunately, the shop was closed till 11/6 . sads.
BUT, he managed to find a saloon that cuts hair for 5usd, so off he went. for a hair cut.
and i spotted a small cafe down the road from the saloon which serves buffet for 5.99usd. :O so just whack only. so there, we settled lunch/dinner there. haha. very rare to find cheap chinese food in US okay.
honestly, the food was that fantastic, but for 5.99, im a happy girl alrd. hahaha.
went to walk ard a lil more after food.
oh, here's the f21 at union sq. what's 313's f21 compared to this mann? hahaha. i dunno how the staffs survive actually.

went back to the car and then it was to the vista point(viewing pt?) for the golden gate bridge once again.
pretty!! :D
even prettier with 2 of us inside the pic. WAHAHAHA. thick-skin only.
after this, we started our road trip towards L.A (via the PACIFIC OCEAN) ^^

keep a lookout for my next post ;)

(ps:leaving for BKK in 4 hrs? and i haven't even started packing. dies. X.X buaibyezzxz. )

2011-06-27T07:09:00.001+08:00

我终于渐渐明白
爱太空那种无奈
让我们看不到未来
也没勇气能走开

USA (II) - Wisconsin , Madison

2011-06-18T11:12:00.002+08:00

hi peeps, i've finally settled down a lil and found some time to upload my 1000+ photos i've taken in the states over the past 20 days. and some stuff cropped up when i touched down, so i was very tied up the past few days.

this trip has been a truly enjoyable one and also an eye-opener for me. its my first time to a western country in my 21 years of living. and i am really glad that i finally got to spend some time with spencer and get to see him physically. also, i dont know how i will survive without him in the states throughout the trip. ♥ you b and thank you for being so tolerate with me the whole time.

i will just write about whatever i can rmb and it might not be in order because i really cant exactly rmb when i did what or go where. haha. i'll just be summarizing my 9 days at his place for this post. i'll continue about california - L.A, Las Vegas, Yosemite and Chicago in the next few post! Too much to do in one post. =X

so let's begin!
because food is so sexpensive in the states, spencer bought some ingredients before i came over so that we could have some home-cooked meal to save some moolah. so here are some of our creation. heh.

and i must show this meal in full size because we cooked curry for the whole of pres house that night. hehe. it turned out pretty well i guess? heh. just in case you guys can't follow -pres house where spencer is staying in wisconsin. and there's 6 people sharing the apartment, so we cooked for 6 people that night. funn!! :D

and i did mentioned that it was pretty cold when i headed over in my previous post yea? so half the time i wanted to go into the shops whenever we were roaming outside. and my favorite hangout was the supermarket across the street from spencer's place. why? because its WARM and COSY. =P and one of the nights we were there, we chanced upon the pancake mix and decided to get it for breakfast the next day!
and ta-dahhhh! here's my creation. wahahaha. i did this while spencer was still sleeping. because the sun rises super early in the states, like 6? and his room's binds aren't working, being a light-sleeper, i ended up waking up super early most of the time. so, i decided to cook the pancakes before he wakes up so that he can eat once he's awake. heh. but he told me he could smell it even before he came out of the room. haha. =\ anw, it tasted YUMMEH. ♥♥♥
so here's state street which is just outside his place. and if y0u walk further down, there's american apparel, GAP, urban outfitters and many thrift stores. i totally love the states.
he brought me to five guys for lunch on one of the days. their meal portions there O.O - huge. so we shared the meal and headed down for some free ice cream after that. we walked into this ice cream store - campus candy, cause i saw that they serve fro-yo. so the sales person was just recommending the flavours and all, and we were supposed to take whatever amount we wanted and add any toppings of our choice. the system there isn't like in sg where there will be ice cream girls scooping it for you and all, you just take whatever amount you want and they charge by weight. when we were done and all ready to pay, the cashier told us that we could have it for FREE. we were like 'huh? are you serious?? ' hahaha. and she was serious. i think perhaps the cash register was down or smth and so they cant process the sales, so they had to give free ice cream. really love US!! imagine if this were to happen in sg, i can confirm plus chop that within 10 mins the whole shop will be flooded with people and everyone will take whatever amount they can. the store will just close down within a day mann. love the integrity-based culture they have there.
we went to walk around the campus after that.
SO NICE RIGHTTTT. imagine NTU having such a field. haha. people actually sun-bath there yknow. during summer. i've no idea how they do that cause its freaking COLD.

walked over to lake mendota after that. very naiseee. but beri colds. brrrr...
this is pres house. its a church actually.
but there's apartments behind the church, so that's spencer's place.
i think this was another day where he wanted to bring me for yummy jap food but the place was closed, it was their break time or smth. so we settled for the other jap restaurant along state street. quite yummy still ! heh. and their portion was indeed hugeee.
more strolling after food!

oh yes. alfresco dining works there!! because its cool enough outside. i dont understand why sg wanna copy them for?? its so freaking hot in sg ? i think you will melt even before you get your food mann. alfresco dining's kinda popular there? i do see a lot of such seating along state street itself. BUT, i will not dare to sit and eat outside because its so freaking COLDDDDDDD. :O
i got to try the the made-in-wisconsin ice cream as well. (this isnt the free ice cream i was talking about before tho)
if you read closely enough, you'll see this : "Nutritional Information: Don't even ask, this is the best ice cream made in Wisconsin , and it taste so good because it has gobs of Wisconsin cream, tons of real ingredients for boat-loads of luscious flavour. This means that it is not low fat, low calorie or low-anything. That's why everyone loves it. You want nutritious, eat carrots."
HAHAHAHAHA. best.

we rented the car, i think on friday? so that we could go places further away. heh. here's my safest-driver. i miss him. :<
our first stop - TARGET. to buy the GPS for our road-trip. and here's spencer posing sexily. a bit fails tho.

then we hop-ed over to macys which was just opposite after that. actually, i dont see the hype in macys, target, etc. i love WALMART. hahaha. cheapcheap plus its so big and has almost everything you will need. reese at such cheap prices and all kinds of snacks. i will so grow fat if i stay there. but me rikes walmart still.

then it was to west town mall for some shoppingggg. hehe.

they have this vending machines in the mall. SO COOL CAN? Reeses' for 1 buck! me wants it now!♥
and they have this 25cents candy machines everywhere too. and you actually do see people buying. interesting.
and of course, VICTORIA SECRETS. every girls' dream mann. haha. and yes, most of the VS i saw were this big. the interior is kinda deep, so its really HUGE. not like the one at rws, so punny.
headed for yummy pizzas for dinner after that.
and finally!!! catching a movie together. its so common for couples in sg to catch movies together and most couples do it so often that they catch almost all the available movie. but its so rare for us because we're always so far apart from each other, like now. we decided on 'hangover 2' ! nice show! i love their theaters. again, integrity-based culture. they only check your coupon once at the entrance where you enter and you wont be checked again at the doors. plus its free seating. so technically, you can pay 9.50 and after one movie, walk over to another theater and catch another and no one will know. how cool! but we didnt have the luxury of time, so we could only catch 1 :< the next time i am there, i will make sure i watch at least 2 movies ! =P
then it was the weekends! weekends during summer, they will have this event known as the 'farmers' market'. where local farmers will come down and open a store to sell organic vegetables , cheese, meat, fish ,etc. which they produce back at home. and i would say the locals were quite supportive. many of them actually manage to sell-out most of their items. and the opening hours was only from 10-1pm? 3 hrs? kudos to them mann.

you can also see street performers along the roads as well during the event.
AND kids climbing trees, in total approval of their dad. how cutezzz !
oh, they happened to sell bbtea there that day as well. non-legit ones tho. haha. but spencer does seem happy enough with it. i still prefer koi. XP
we headed for some bagels after that for brunch.
focus on the JAMBA JUICE on the table! its my favourite drink in the states!! i miss it so much :O i am willing to trade koi for it. :C its THAT good. its just fruit smoothies, but the way they blend it, omg... so smooth, so nice. i was telling spencer that they should franchise it in singapore. definitely a hit! if its the same price as koi, taste as good or if not better, plus its 200% healthier, i dont see why no one will buy it! come to singapore please jamba!
we took the bus for the first time to east town mall on one of the days as well. their public transport isn't as versatile as sg's one tho. the bus frequency's roughly an hour? so the best mode of transport there is either - walking, cycling or driving. but i can tell you parking's a bitch. so the best will be walking. haha.

dinner at ella's deli after shopping! :D very interesting concept for a restaurant. the interior was decorated with old toys and all kind of toys i've never seen. but the best part is that they have a carousel on the outside! so pwetty!! ♥

as usual, super big portion meals. haha. we always end up having to do take-aways. but its kinda common in their culture i suppose. headed back after that for the night. we almost froze to death waiting for the bus outside. =S colddddd.
chipotle for brunch on the next day. its mexican food. pretty nice. other than the fact that there were a lil too much green peppers+ tomato, which i dont have any liking for.
bus day again (becuase renting a car is super expensive at madison) !
spencer finally tried chili's !! he havent tried it in sg and after being in the states for so long he still hasn't tried it. lousyyy. chili's kinda common in the states, unlike in sg where you can only find it at tanglin mall/ RWS. and its so expensive to dine at here in sg.
we got the $20 meal with 1 appetizer and 2 main course! cheap or what!! :>
after which, we had to wait for the bus again and we kind missed the bus and had an hour to kill. so we headed opposite to barnes & noble nook, a bookstore, to keep warm especially. heh. i went around to look for a few of the books i had in mind but didn't manage to find :< spencer got a genome book, sci fic? haha. maybe i'll read it the next time i go over.
its no joke standing out there with the cold winding brushing across your face while waiting for the bus. because you will get cranky. like ...
become sun wu kong?
or start doing crazy jumping movements. hahahaha.
♥
my stay in madison's coming to an end and spencer decided to bring me to wisconsin dells on the following monday! and thank God for good weather! i think it was 27/28 degrees at day? so RARE! wis dells is a water theme park, smth like wild wild wet in sg but much bigger and definitely much funner! it was an hour's drive away from where we stayed at tho. but worth it!

sonia came with us as well!! :D sonia's one of spencer's housemate!

i rikes wis dells!! the next time i go over i'll make sure we head there earlier so that we can play more games!! cause they close early :< like 5pm!?!? and by the time we got there it was alrd close to 1pm :<
us queuing for some ride.
you see that sign. 'all rides start at the bottom of the hill' ? and see what we were doing? going up the hill. damn joke please. we seriously can't follow instructions. hahaha. there was really nothing up there and we ended up walking down again. the park's so hugeee. finally, we realised the rides were further down on the other side of the park. -.- |||
our favourite ride! black anaconda!! ♥♥♥ we played it 3 times i think? damn thrilling!

we queued for like an hour for this? cause it was down for filter checks or smth mid-way while we were queuing. definitely the scariest ride ever. you actually stand upright and the bottom flap, flaps down and you fall straight down. *screams and die* we only took this once. haha.
and while waiting, we saw this very 'pretty' tree brunch. i initially thought it was colourful shells on it or what. but upon closer examination ....... its chewed-bubblegums!?!??! gross max. =S

when it was close to 5, we decided to head to the wavepool before we leave! fun max!! but the water was duper cold and dirty. (as seen in the pictures) ohyes, reason why i even have pictures at a water theme park is because i brought along this waterproof bag for cameras! but the size doesnt fit very well, so you keep seeing black sides. paiseh, skill not very zai. haha.

so cute!
trying out underwater shots! the water's really kinda musky huh?
left wis dells after that!

headed back to his place to fetch raj and sam (also pres house peeps) before heading to a chinese restaurant for dinner!
i like the dessert! its called 'shuan pi nai dan' i think? super yummeh!!
and since we had the car for that day, we decided to go for supper later at night! at Perkins! my favourite eatery in the states! its kinda the same as Dennys, but it taste way better. no idea why. perkins/dennys are like the 24hrs eatery in the states if you were wondering. we only have macdonalds in sg. failsss.

and here's my all time favourite! PAN CAKES. its pretty common in the states. not so easily found in sg tho.

OHYES, i forgot to mention that i went for one of their house party in wisconsin as well. and the way they consume alcohol there ... O.O . pure shots. not even on the rocks. zai. hahaha. i think i will die if i party there. but i didnt party throughout my stay there. main reason - ITS TOO FREAKING COLD. hahaha.

alright, finally done with one-third of my journey. till my next post!
ciao!

Too fast

2011-06-15T09:07:00.002+08:00

i've just got back from my holiday and my heart has been so unsettled since then. so many things happening so fast that i don't know how i am suppose to react to all of them. feeling so stressed up over so many matters. i feel like i need to run away from all these and go into isolation but yet i needa be at my strongest at this point of time. i even wished that i could go back in time to undo all the past mistakes of mine to make myself a better person. my thoughts are all in a buzz now, i can't even sleep in peace at night. and no, its not jet-lag.

i don't get it, why is it that stress is ever overpowering in my world? why can't life be less demanding?

i wish i could pour my heart out to someone who would understand.

U.S.A (I)

2011-05-27T20:57:00.004+08:00

its freaking 8am here in the morning now and im awake yet again, this EARLY. in fact, i was up around 6 plus cause the sun comes up at that time everyday and spencer's room's binds arent working. i cant really sleep when there's light around and best part - i forgot to bring along my EYEMASK :( bahhh. but thankfully, i havent got any jetlag going on here cause i touched down at say 12mn when i arrived and the 24hr flight was enough to wear me out. no joke. i can't stand long haul flights :S even with in-flight entertainment, pillows, blankets and hell loads of food and all sort of drinks, i CANNOT take it. once i got onto my 3rd flight, i though my brains were gonna explode, seriously that bad.

ohyes, my luggage was kinda delayed when i got over here. i guess it's pretty much a very common thing to get your luggage misplaced when you do flight transfer. but thankfully, i was well-prepared. all thanks to spencer's 'awesome' past experience, i brought along one extra set of clothes with me in my carry-on bag and i got to change into a clean set of clothes when i reached the apartment. :D in any case, i got my luggage the very next day, won't be complaining too much.

anw, i havent been traveling around much cause the weather has been pretty much a killer, say around 12 degrees celsius. i dont even have anything suitable for this cold weather here :C spencer said it was summer? so i assumed it'll be at least 20 degree celsius and only brought along light-weighted clothings (AKA chiffon stuff) but i guess i can take solace in the fact that i at least brought ONE pair of jeggings. i'm hoping it will tide me through my entire trip! and yes, i was kinda like a ba-zhang(dumpling) for the first 3 days cause i literally just wrapped myself up in his leather jacket which was kinda meant for winter. hahahaha.

on thurs, the weather finally got a lil warmer - 14 degrees? actually, i would say that its the wind that kills and not the temperature. the wind makes it so exceptionally cold. brrrrr... anyhow, we finally got to go around madison to check out the surrounding area ytd and i bought a longchamp (yes ANOTHER) bagpack, a pair of leggings from GAP and spencer got me an uglydoll plushie ! hehe. happy G.

we rented the car today and im looking forward to more shopping later in the day!:DD

i dont exactly know how to load all my pictures on spen's mac. so yea, just 1 picture of us and me. heh.

miss all my lovelies in sg ♥♥♥

Exam stressssss.

2011-05-01T22:20:00.004+08:00

exams madness and i still can't believe that i've been through this 3 times and yet i always fail to uphold what i promised myself at the beginning of the semester. you know they always tell you the key to success? you know it, i know it, we all know it. but i also know that procrastination is the key to failure. and im married to procrastination.(as proven by this post) bahhh.

on another note, i thought i would just rant some stuff that's going through my mind recently. somehow i always get people asking and telling me, that i'm going on a holiday AGAIN ? but the fact is that they don't know how hectic my life is and they are not going through what i am going through. i think i truly deserve a break from all these. its not easy holding a retail job, juggling it together with 5 tutees, go for dental appointments, going for driving lessons, and of course school work. oh and yes, i'm going through a ldr. time's of the essence. and although i don't think that i'm doing all that awesome, i'm fine with it. but the thing that people forget is that i'm human too. i get tired. i get sick of my busy like a bee life. it's been so long since i stepped into the movie theaters, went out for shopping trips with my friends, went out to chill at a beach or anywhere or what nots. i don't celebrate month-saries like how i used to even. yes, i do club but that's kinda it. and my weekdays are filled with school + work. weekends, don't even think about asking me out, they are packed with tuitions + work. friday nights, saturday nights. what are most people doing? out somewhere chilling or on dates isn't it? and what do i have? after work i go home and maybe skype? haha. but that isn't the case all the time. sometimes, i really do have no plans and i go home just to be greeted by my books/notes/video lectures. maybe fringe/himym. but still, i miss going out. i miss having a social life. sometimes, i wish i could just give up my work and tuition assignments. i'm so tired. i can't wait for 23may where i can be free from all of these and just enjoy life.

so, don't tell me that i'm rich or what. i am not. i'm slogging my heart out for some enjoyment. and i think it's just fair to me to take a breather from the pile of load on me. i deserve it. :p

People

2011-04-27T19:53:00.003+08:00

'I hate the fact I can’t escape people. You try to avoid them at all cost yet you know you’re going to have to put up with them being around. I know that in life where ever I go there will always be a number of people whom I can’t stand from being either too proud or too annoying. I understand that that’s life and people are never going to be perfect, its just I don’t get why a person would choose to be a particular way. I can't remember when I got so bothered by people’s personalities. But as I grow up, I realize how much more I am starting to dislike people for their personality. Most of the time its the people I start to get close to. Maybe its because as soon as two people become so free with each other, they break the barrier to who they really are. The true self starts to show, even the negatives. I wish that people would realize that.'

shopshop

2011-04-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

hi peeps!

i'm too busy to blog. so here's just one update if you're too stress from studying, hope onto :

http://thelastparadee.livejournal.com

for some retail therapy and quote my name 'gillian' for free normal postage :)

xoxo

Party like a ROCKSTAR ♥♥♥

2011-04-14T23:22:00.004+08:00

SO.SO.SO. i turned 21 a few days back and yes i'm now an adult. how time flies. i'm officially into adulthood. how sad. but it also means i am eligible for 'funding' from the govt this year. heh.

since we only turn 21 once in a lifetime, i decided to hold a party this year! and thanks to my pixies, we decided on the theme 'Party like a ROCKSTAR'. how apt, especially when i enjoy partying ^^
after looking at how P,shar, nikki struggled with problem with the venue, i booked my venue 5 months in advance. heh. kiasu singaporean ftw! so i managed to get the venue i wanted - NSRCC. yes, it was a lil pricey. but the place looks really really nice! :D

see what i mean? :) (pics below)

there was only 2 bedrooms to my dismay tho. i thought there would be three. but overall, its still a pretty nice place. heh.

so spencer and i got there 1 day earlier as i initially wanted to separate my family and friends celebration. but my family members were all not free on friday and it doesnt make sense to have <10 peeps coming over and next day i needa invite those who weren't free to join my friends AGAIN. so yea, i just decided to combine and so friday was just honeymoon for spen and me. heh.

anw, so my dear pixies came over around 3 to help me out with deco! and i really should mention that NSRCC really pissed me off that day. they made me change my bungalow a few hours JUST BEFORE the event. i really really wanted to strangle and kill them. how am i suppose to relay that info in sucha short time!?!?! and after that with that big hoo-ha with me using a chair to reserve a lot just outside the bungalow. seriously, the management need to use some brains. at least allocate 2 lots outside the bungalow for the 'host' right?!? since they allowed me to register 2 cars for the 'subsidized' parking fee, then at least give me the space. it doesnt make any sense for the 2 registered cars to be parked so far away from the bungalow isnt it?? BAHHHHH. stupid nsrcc. >:C spoil my mood/day.

back to my topic. so here's the final result of my pixies' hard work! mel did the rockstar wording and apparently, my sis commented that it was VERY WELL DONE (i know you're reading this mel) hahahaha. power sia mel! thank you! :D
and those floating balloons you see? helium tank was sponsored by my lovely DEELAI !! heh. thank you so much babes for making the pretty deco possible :DD
presenting melody slacking after working so hard. haha!rest time.

dee, nikki and nic went out to help me get more balloons after they 'pumped-up' the 30 i bought and thought that it wasn't enough and guess what? they came back with one more HUGE-ASS BALLOON. albeit being very afraid of balloons (i am more against the rubbery kind tho, reason why the balloons were all floating and not on the floor that day), i really really appreciate my pressie from nikki and dee!! THANK YOU GIRLS ! love you all!! :D

so ard 7pm, catering (kindly sponsored by spen) was done up and my aunty and cousins started to arrive first. heh. ken and spen went to collect my pizza + cake, so they were kinda mia from my pics. hahaha.

here's one of my closer cousin. and that's her daugther. cutexz or what? heh.
and i realised this was the only picture of my GUESTBOOK!! (kindly done up by my current roomie in hall, how nice of her!! :DD ) thank kewww shar for posing with it. hahaha!
pixies - nikki + nic
BFF ! (PIXIE)
XIN-XIN(PIXIE)
MEOW-LO-DY(PIXIE)
ziying , shishi, yvonne
hui juan + arthur
OHYES. when the kids came in. the balloons became such a BAD MOVE. they were SO enchanted by the 'floating' balloons and started running ard pulling them off the celling and it was so damn difficult to control them. i really needa thank my other cousin for helping me with the 'crowd-control'. HAHA.
DEELAI (PIXIE)
NIKKI(PIXIE)
NIC (PIXIE)
rod

food looks good? heh. my mum made those jelly thingy tho. not under catering. haha.

and i swear the beehoon was damn awesome? just that my mum decide to come SO DAMN LATE and everyone alrd filled their tummy by then. so wasted. :<

sui
van, denise, jimmy (my only ntu mates. hahahaha)
denise hard at work on my guestbook. :)
Darryll
forfeit! we had forfeits for people who didn't come dressed appropriately according to the theme and rod was the number one person who had to 'perform' his forfeit. i think it was to describe how to make a cake without talking. HAHAHAHA. video's on shar's camera i think!
deep in discussion i guess? haha.
huaiiiii my pixies SO CUTEXZXZ?!?!?
shar + meow . LOVE YOU TWO !^^ ♥
shishi!
ziying
yvonne
cute deelai :D
this was exactly what i was doing half the time. bbm/sms/fb -ing on my bb. haha.
classic candid. but beng, you look quite good even on candid camera (Y)

OMG. SEE THAT SILVERY DISCO BALL ON THE CELLING. THAT WAS SELF-MADE HOKAYY. NO JOKE. HAHA. NO ONE FOCUSED ON IT THO. I'M SHO SADDDDD. :<
YAY! my timbre pizzas arrived! thanks to my deliverymen - spen + ken. heh. and yes, THANKS JINHUI ! :DD
nic ah. damn cute!

i had 10 timbre pizzas for the night at highly subsidized rate as well. i really really am DAMN LUCKY to have such good friends. i've no better words to describe how to thank all of them. THANK YOU ALL AWESOMEZXZXZ LOVELIES !
BFF-HUG ! ^^ ♥ ♥ ♥

tambu -the BFG :)
baoxiang in his very sexy jeans. haha.
arthur in his amazingly handsome sunnies. HAHAHAHAHA.
mingqi.
yingjie.
sophia!
MY DISCO BALL :DD
forfeit time again! for yingjie, he had to suck helium and sing a song! comical max! all videos are with shar. visit her blog soon! pretty sure it'll be all uploaded there! heh.
KOI treat for all my pixies.
with thanks to spen. love you b. :D
xin, THM
MR BENG

HAHAHAHAHA. nikki. seriously. you crack me up!
alan. (miss dnd 10`) :<
baby ♥

arthur doing his forfeit. i can't rmb what tho. :x
and this is mingqi doing his 'term'. his forfeit was so EASY for him. it was to make 3 person laugh with either actions/words/songs. and i have no idea why, he just need to look at someone and that someone will start laughing. (including me =X)
see what i mean? tambu was laughing SO BAD. i think arthur was tearing alrd? HAHAHAHA.

after all that fun, it was time for the 'cut-cake ceremony' !

that's my mum and dad. main point here is - I AM THE FREAKING SHORTEST IN MY FAMILY. FML. even my younger sis, who's not present as she was still in china, is around my mum's height. SIGHHHH. and i'm alrd 167cm for those who don't know. HAHA. i am always a giant with my friends but the dwarf at home.
all my PIXIES ! MAD LOVE YO!!! :DD (biggest pixie on the extreme right) hehe. ♥ ♥ ♥secondary school is really where you find friends for LIFE. love you all girls!♥ FLOWERS (where are you P :< )
my angels in school. i really will DIE in school without them. love you girls!! :D
babylove ♥ MISC. GANG
DND 10`
sharshar :D
wa, suddenly i dunno how to label this picture. haha. urm, family? heh.

MR SEXY-IN-WHITE-SHIRT GUY CUTTING CAKE FOR MY GUEST. he's mr ken lai for you girls out there who think he is hot. he is CURRENTLY single and available ;D HAHAHAHA. (don't kill me ken, if you ever read this)
what are you two doing? haha.
seriously nic!!!!!

here's mr jinhui (mr PIZZA guy) and yijie. they can be lamer. jinhui brought a rock and yijie bought a star -.-

after that 'ceremony' , it was free and easy time. some started playing mahjong, some dj hero ( with thanks to tristan!! ) and the rest on the floor for some drinking games. ;D
this table fall into none of those category stated above. they were drinking? haha.
MAHJONGGG.
very engrossed indeed. and very unglam mel!!!!!sit properly mellllll. you're 21!!!
ken
the four brothers. why only yh is smiling?? who owe you all money?!!?
rach

keith gone. hahaha!

natnat.
D obviously gone. or rather this is the 'opening-ceremony' (you'll see the closing further down)
VERY GONE.
HAHAHAAHAHA.
then shar was goneeeee too.

baby ♥THM, why so xinku to drink 1 cup??
'closing-ceremony' he went to hug the toilet floor after this. HAHAHAHAHA.

what a cool haircut mingqi!
yijie as the clown. hahaha.
rach was very tired i suppose?

around 3 or 4 we went off to send spen off to the airport :<

went back to clear up the bungalow after that whole event and i didn't get to sleep a wink through the night. but i guess it was all worth it. i miss that weekend a lot tho. :<
here's all the pressie i've received. not a lot, but its the most in the 21 years of my life.

im thankful for all the friends i've met in my life. every single one of you made an impact on who i am and where i am today. thank you all. i love you all.

Wish you were here

2011-04-06T17:23:00.004+08:00

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

2011-04-04T17:39:00.001+08:00

i miss us.

Immuned

2011-03-12T00:08:00.004+08:00

i'm getting so immune to this - my virtual life. maybe as we grow older, we start to learn to settle for less, we are satisfied with leading a mundane life even. it doesn't really matter to me if a real homosapien is actually seated/standing right beside me anymore. because the people i really wanna spend time with seems to live in cyberspace all the time. life's sad like that. at times, i don't even feel like i have the energy to bring my lazy bum out to meet anyone. i've gotten too used to this, sitting-in-front-of-the-computer-days i guess. is this bad? :\

sigh. i need more energy to keep me moving seriously. im getting sick of going through my days as it is. and even my daily arguments are always the same. i'm getting pretty tired of it all. don't ask me how long i can sustain this. because that's a question i cannot answer. and sometimes, it's not that you aren't giving enough. i'm just expecting too much.

She thinks she’s getting better but really, she’s just getting used to the pain.

2011-03-05T00:31:00.000+08:00

Vday 11`

2011-03-03T23:01:00.006+08:00

Here's my belated entry for my first valentine's day with spencer. :)

Technically we didn't spend it together tho, cause he's 9265miles away from me(i actually googled this. haha) We didn't get to spend vday like all other normal couples, so we did it thru love mail parcels. Heh.

Although i didn't get any flowers (real ones) from him, he sent me flowers that'll sing + never wither. :DD

Cutezxzxz or what? Heh.

And this is the coolest part of the gift. My personalised 'book' :D

These are just some pages that I took, there are a lot more pages but I thought it'll be retarded to take picture of everything. So yea, here's just some to share alright? :)

Here's a song that's so apt for us.

With you is where I'd rather be

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

I wish that you were here with me

But we're stuck where we are

And it's so hard,you're so far

This long distance is killing me

All over once more

2011-03-01T21:21:00.003+08:00

If only there was a restart button in life.

This idea had always been lingering in my mind all along. But it got ignited, enough for me to write something there, yesterday after my tuition session with my student.

She's only sec1, but she's one chatty girl! She so happened to ask me my O level grades and what will I do if I could re-do my O levels again. And at that moment, it struck me. What will happen if I could start all over again? Will I let my final outcome(me pursuing a degree in bio science in ntu) dictate what subjects I should have taken in secondary and jc days? Or, will I study harder for the subjects I was alrd holding on to, so that I could get into a course of my choice?

I think the biggest mistake I've made was to allow my results decide where I will go all the time. Since I was in p6 taking my PSLE then to O levels and even up till A levels. And I have to agree, it was a bad method to adopt. I am always envious of people who have goals/aims in life. Even if they were super ambitious. At the very least, they have something to work towards to. And me? I've nothing, even till now, I have no idea what I wanna be in the future. Maybe that's how the idea of being 'tai-tai's came about. Its something those who have no ambitious will tell others. Its a good 'excuse' isn't it?? Heh.

My student, who's only sec1 told me that her aim is to get into stanford. She wanna be a lawyer. I won't say anything to put her down, definitely. But all I can say is, she really has a lot to work on if she want her dream to come true.

Many at times, I've been put down again and again. (Not by others, but my own grades.) So much so that I've lost the courage to dare to dream. Why? Not only does it cost a bomb to go after a dream, it doesn't guarantee that I will achieve the grades I want. So as for now, I can only stick to whatever I've been 'bestowed' upon. =S

I've learnt to suck it up and move on. Work for what I want and get what I can afford - a degree at ntu. No matter if I've interest in that course or not. Sux2bme. :C

Wish me luck :/

Voice out

2011-02-18T01:30:00.004+08:00

I think there's just somethings i needa voice out.

I am particularly anal with people who takes forever to pay back whatever amount they owe me. And what's the worst I've heard from people is that ' you're working what, you can pay your cc bill first right?' Seriously. That brings my pissy-scale to a whole new level. If you need reminders for you to remember to transfer me ,at least tell me, make it known to me. I will remind you and I bear no grudges with you for that. What I really hate is when I have to mass spam smses just to get a reply from those people. People always pretend to not receive smses regarding payment. I know. And I hate spam mails/emails or any sort of spamming, so as much as possible I will not do that. But sometimes, people really know how to push you to the limit.

One important point these people need keep in mind is that, I work so bloody hard not to pay for YOUR drinks at the clubs. I work to finance myself. If you can't afford to drink/party/club. DON'T. It just dampens the whole mood. Especially when I have to chase you for the cash. I jolly well know that monetary problems will spoil friendships, and I do restrain myself from hounding anyone for payment until the point when I am really really tight on cash. But that doesn't mean that people should be taking advantage of my kindness. If you're tight on cash too, at least give me a dateline on which you will be able to make payment. That will at least give me time to plan out my expenditure. What I usually do if I owe others cash and I can't pay up yet. is to tell them that I will return them the amount once my pay is credited into my account on every 7th of the month. And I make sure I deliver my promise.

I know I might be practical. But this is how I am. To those whom only know how to ask for money, and can't afford to spend. Please. Either you go and find a job to get extra income or just stay home. Especially guys. Asking a girl to pay at the club for you is just NOT cool at all. If you really have to, pay her on the spot with cash. Its really a turn-off to girls when they have to pay for your drinks. And to those guys I'm addressing, have some integrity. When I ask you how many shots you all took. All of you said none. How do you all explain the amount spent on the shots? You mean we ordered and the drinks disappeared? Yea right. Maybe it did. And now I have to pay your debts. Seriously. Fcuk you all. And please, have the decency to never ever ask to join me at the clubs. You all are very not welcomed at all.

FUNNEH

2011-01-30T12:59:00.003+08:00

Complete the following in no more than 50 words :
'The man sat outside his house…’

Spencer's version >>

and saw a blonde-busty chick wearing a red body-con dress without bra.Like any other ordinary male species in the world, he immediately had an erection. However, people usually judge through physical appearance without knowing the truth behind the desirable figure of the blonde women that she is a transsexual .

LOL!!

What's your version? ^^

KL 11`

2011-01-20T23:21:00.027+08:00

SO, i've been so busy since spencer came back. days after exams was either spent with him or work. haha. and now that he's back to the states, i'll be all busy with school, tuition and work.

time flies, in another 3 days school will commence. yr 2 sem 2. sounds pretty dreadful. checked my results a few days back, and it was disappointing as usual with so many C grades. i am just thankful that i didn't fail any modules, albeit being so unprepared for my core papers. this means that i don't have to retake any of those disgusting mods again next year. well done G.

i promised i will blog about my KL trip earlier this year, and here i am doing it now. like finally. i took so bloody long to resize the pics. seriously, is there any software out there which will allow me to resize all the pics all at one go? :\ damn tiring lehh, to resize one by one. X.X

anyhow, just got back from bkk yest and i had better blog about my kl trip before the memories get so far-fetch. haha. (bkk rocks btw)

here we go!

DAY ONE

we woke up early and did morning exercise by running for the coach. haha. blame it on me. bad time estimation. but thank goodness the coach waited for us. maybe because there was only 4 people scheduled for that coach in the morning, including the 2 of us. poor couple who went early had to wait for us . =x we even got kopi , teh and beehoon before boarding. wahahaha. we seriously rock.

so we reached sunway,after a 6 hr journey. since we didn't know where the exact location of our hotel was at, we decided to seek help from the reception counter of the mall. they were very very nice, and they even helped us with calling up the hotel to check which 'outlet' it was. cause there was 2 'outlets' around that area under the same company i guess.

and i think it was during then, i dropped something at the counter, but didn't realize. so while walking over to kim gary, i suddenly heard my FULL name being announced through the PA system?? and my phone had this weird number calling me non-stop. so i decided to pick up the phone and walk back to the information counter. at that point of time, i kept checking my bag, trying to figure out what i dropped - which had my FULL name and hp number!?!?
and when we finally got there, they asked me what did i dropped. and seriously, i have NO CLUE. hahaha. damn fail. its my item and i've no idea what. and guess what it turn out to be? my PHONE BILL. hahahaha. and there was money inside the envelope as well. and that was quite a bit of sgd. oops. no wonder they kept calling me thru my phone and announcing my name thru the PA system. thank gosh it wasn't in sg. so paiseh please. haha.

anw,back to my food :
had kim gary for lunch!

happy spencer with his food. haha. we were both mad hungry by then.
our meal minus the french toast which came later. i mega love the french toast in msia. its not the usual one we get at hk cafe in sg. the one over at msia has peanut butter filling inside the bread. YUMMY MAX. the taste of peanut butter melting in your mouth with the soft egg-coated bread and honey is just -MMmmmmm. YUMMEH. :D

after food, the rained stopped, we headed over to check in.
and interestingly, this was what we saw at the side counter.

HAHA. yangyang's tristan's nick name and it was funny to see it as the name of the laundry shop. classic.

got back to the room, rested abit before heading to petaling street at night for some kl food.

this is a must go at petaling street. they serve really yummy chinese food. and everyone should try out their hokkien mee. not the usual one you see in sg. its fried with some fat mee and black sauce. one bad point is that there's quite a bit of lard oil pieces in it. yikes. took us quite some time to fish them out.
i DON'T KNOW why he is smiling to the coconut.
our food!
our days in KL was just food food food and more food actually. haha.

after dinz, walked around petaling street where they sell lots and lots of replicas of LV/chanel/Gucci etc. etc. you name it they have it. but all i got was a bag for school.
cabbed back after which. another thing to note. i hate to take cabs in msia. the cab drivers there are so anal. they are so bent on NOT using the meter. what is wrong with them mann. hate it. i prefer the cab drivers in bkk. meter mai? all say yes. me rikes! ^^

since the night was still young when we got back, we decided to go try out bowling. the bowling alley closes at 1am anw. and guess what we saw on the way in?
kissing fishes. cute max!! >.<
pro at work
yeah~
don't judge us. hahaha. us in my ultra cute max jacket. heh.
after which, on our way back we stopped by a bar to have some drinks before heading back to our room to rest for the day.

DAY TWO

since day 2 was meant to be spent visiting klcc and times square, we didn't wake up too early. we tried to make our trip as relaxed as possible. heh.

our hotel isn't exactly located at sunway itself, so we had to walk over everyday. its a budget style hotel anyhow. we're too poor to book the posh rooms. hahas. anw, fresh air every morning ! (Y)

then it was brunch over at george town. wanted to bring spencer to try 'ming tian' ( its the coffee shop's name btw) but we were too hungry and decided to settle on george town which was located within the mall . ('ming tian' was located further out. )

after brunch, cabbed down to klcc. cabbing in kl's a bitch mann. so bloody sexpensive. >.<
clean and fresh us! :D

after walking around, we decided to head over to times square since the reception lady told us that it was nearer compared to mid valley mall. she told us we could take the bus down. i've never taken the msia bus in kl before. considered a new experience this time round. hahas. and its SO FRIGGING cheap to take the bus. for like a 15 mins journey, it cost us RM1 each. cheaper than sg sbs/smrt la! and the funny thing was that we asked the bus driver how many stops will we be stopping at before reaching times square, he say 'MANY MANY' (msian generally can't speak english and so happens he was a malay driver, there was no way we could communicate.) so we went to take our seat after which. and guess what? he didn't even stop at any other stops? so we literally only took from one end to the other. the uncle lied to us sia. what many many stops. ONE stop only pls. haha. just that it was one LONG stop. it was a fun experience in any case ;)

tadah! we were dropped off at bintang walk and had to maneuver ourselves over to times square thereafter.

walked around and explored the 12 storey shopping mall (times square), had dinner and went back to sunway after that.

rmbed i mentioned that we went to bowl on day 1? on day 2, we decided to try out archery next to the bowling alley. it was our virgin try at archery ! pretty fun actually! hahas. and now i know, archery can be very draining as well. the stupid bow was so heavyyyy! and i cant shoot for nuts. hahas.
me and my very pro pose. ikr. hahaha. act only ma.
no prize for guessing which one is mine. hahaha.

after archery, we decided to head over to the cinema for NARNIA. we're SO SLOW. i know. but bo bian. spencer's away more than half the time, and i was so busy with exams and all. haha. at least we caught something. not too bad.

spencer posing with hot babe. haha.

walked back to the hotel after over movie while enjoying the christmas lighting's that were still up.

DAY THREE

finally! we managed to wake up to head to 'ming tian' for breakkie!
we seriously ate like cows there. so much foodie.

then it was to SUNWAY LAGOON , the highlight for our trip. i actually do have a picture of us taken at the entrance, but it was done using the Polaroid. will upload it if i ever find time to do so. anyhow, we did enjoy ourselves at the lagoon cause it wasn't the peak period and we didn't have to queue too long for the rides. but the only sad case was that we didn't get to play at the water park,thanks to my period. :(

the last picture rocks. i know. hahaha. the shower cap. hahaha!

before
after . why so tensed up? hahaha.
ohyes, there was the archery station inside the theme park as well. here's spencer acting pro.
and i think bcos it was our second time, i did a better job this time round. :p

there was this suspension bridge within the park and in my memory i took super long to finish the journey the first time i was there cause i was so scared i will fall. but somehow the fear wasn't there this time round. (Y) brave-r G. up there, we got to view the awesome view of the whole theme park! pretty!
zoo time after that!

ended our day just before the park closed. and we didn't managed to play the last few games cause it started to pour after we visited the wildlife zoo inside the park itself. overall, it was still fun! we were so tired at the end of the day and settle dinner at popeyes before heading back to our room to change out for out night activity! heh. to visit euphoria.

euphoria is their club there. and it is frigging HUGEEE.zouk should totally be like this size la.
spiral stairway to the club. cool or what?
even their toilet doors are cool-er. spencer really needed to pee after taking this picture. hahaha

it was free entry for ladies on a wed and i get a complimentary drink as well :D (btw, their ladies night there is on thurs) so i've no idea why i got free entry. guys had to pay RM25 for entry with 1 drink. still quite reasonable amount i would say.
our first drink - jaggerbomb. heh, but i don't like the 'fake' redbull. its so FRIGGING sweet. i prefer the one nic gives out! haha.

(Y)
the tables were reserved but there was literally no one in the club, so we asked if we could sit down while waiting. the tables there lights up ! mega coolios. and it changes colours, not very obvious in this pic tho.
the dance floor. bigbig dance floor. it was fun dancing tht night because there was SO much space ard us. haha. i guess its not their norm to club on a weekday? but those girls we saw at the club, seriously cmi. they are so desperate that they dance with the pillars. or rather 'grind' the walls. hahaha. fail X100000

one jug of long island tea 'gao' for himself. tsktsk. (fyi the jug of chivas mixer was 102rm compared to 70+rm jug of long island tea)
i had a cup of kahlua and kamikaze shots after that tgt with spencer. music was not bad seriously. but we left early cause we were veh tired from the theme park activity earlier in the day. home sweet home after that.

DAY FOUR

our last day at KL and spencer requested for us to head over to 'ming tian' again for brunch. the food there's really not bad btw. but its KL, so dont expect the food to be that cheap .

attempting barney's wink - failed tho. haha.
every meal there was this sumptuous. haha.

headed back to the mall to walk a lil more before heading to the sunway hotel and resort to wait for our coach back to sg. so pretty. but sadly we didn't stay at this hotel. haha. too sexpensive eh.
our box of krispykreme to accompany us all the way back to sg. heh. so that's all to my kl trip.

tata!! :D

2011-01-08T20:08:00.002+08:00

oops. i've been on a long hiatus ehh. 2011 even just brush past me. o.O

exams have been long over (okay, 2 weeks) and my days have been so packed since holidays started. that's because spencer's back for a short trip before spring sem starts for him. thankfully my shift at work got cut today and this leave me with time to actually catch up with rest and 'me' time.

just got back from kl 2 days ago and i promise i will blog about my kl trip. (i am too lazy to dig up the taiwan photos to blog) heh. very sleepy nao. i shall go take a short nap! yay!

2010-12-17T11:49:00.002+08:00

can i fast forward to 23 dec alrd? stressed out shit by exams. after 5.30 today, it'll be 4 down 2 to go. sbs is just screwed up. seriously. so many bloody mods to take. >:C

2010-12-14T00:20:00.002+08:00

maybe all that studying made me feel so alone. so alone this time round. perhaps i was still wishing, still wishing, the past was still present. having you here to accompany me through these dark hours. but no, i have yet to let the reality that i am alone to sink in.

who would ever understand what i am feeling? having someone, yet no one here concurrently. having to face all the 'slashing' alone, having to watch movies alone, having to enjoy tons of meals alone, having no study buddy, having to cry alone, having no shoulder to lean upon. maybe as we grow older, we get more and more alone. i'm less willing to open up to new friends now, because after all that i've been thru, acquintance(s) is all i ask for. i'm too afraid to let anyone near me anymore, because its only then, people can hurt me the most.

the ugly side(s) of people always let me down. and it has done so over and over again. its true, when you dislike someone, their every actions buys your criticism. and when you're a close friend, you only have care and concern to sell. why is the world so difficult to understand? why is it that we can give up friendship for mundane tiffs? and this is not only the case for friendship(s). even for a relationship, we get so affected by small actions, small talks, small disputes which all end off with the conclusion we all did't intended for.

i'm so stressed out i'm typing so incoherently now. i just needed to get some thoughts out of my mind. tata.

2010-12-06T19:23:00.002+08:00

i'm a sad little girl now :C

friday will mark the start of exams for all sbs students. and i've so much more to complete. i never understood how can some people actually 'finish' studying. more than half the time i can't even complete reading all the lectures? im not talking abt the lecture notes. but fully comprehending it by reading the chapters in the textbook(s), doing the past year papers and being fully prepared. sigh. maybe i'm too use to the spoon-feeding days where 'model' answers are always given to me. so if i dont know the answer, all i have to do is to peep over at the answer sheet and i'll somehow 'get-it' ! i seriously hate my school, school of bio sci, for not uploading the model answer when all other schools do it. so unfair :C

on another note, i havent been able to enjoy my meals for the past one week alrd, and its just gonna be the case for another 2 years, i guess? i haven't told many people about it in fact... i'm gonna put on braces to straighten out my top row of teeth. but bad timing actually. i cant munch on snacks nowww, when i especially need to cause im hungry all the time when i study :C

my bb's kinda cranky recently as well. i end up having to call singtel over and over again. so annoyinggg. why does all the bad things come together... hmph >:C

better get on with my books already.
go away please, my dearest headache. :\

Exam hiatus

2010-11-28T16:20:00.004+08:00

sorry for the long hiatus. i've been too busy with school work + work + all the partying (oops). i haven't got time to sit down and really do a proper entry. not even for now. i'll just do a brief summary on my very boring life.i haven't even got the time to do up an entry for my Taiwan trip, which i'm missing very very much now :C

exam's starting in less than 2 weeks and its so depressing to be studying now when most nus/smu students have already completed their sem. ntu kids lead sucha sad life. boohoo. we havent even started. D`:
but i would have to say that its pretty amazing how fast this sem flew past. it seems like just ytd when school started. sigh. every sem, i start off being so recharged and full of energy, by the end of sem, i just feel so burnout. so tired of all that studying, especially with my super cui gpa. i don't see why i'm even still in school. why am i struggling in my course still? when i jolly well know that i have no interest in discovering the next new drug for AIDS or anything of that sort? not my cup of tea. seriously.

met up with a friend a few days back, and i only can wonder why my brain is degenerating prematurely. we started on the same ground and we're now poles apart. very depressing. very. i can't help but wish i was richer all the time. i could then do whatever i want to. study whatever i have interest in or maybe, put in simply - i could have been smarter.

so many chapters to go for exams. lucks to meeee. :C
looking forward to 23 dec. come quicklyyyy. pretty please? ^^

2010-11-24T23:50:00.003+08:00

You know that feeling? When you finally get what you’ve been waiting for. A smile, good laughs, a lovely day. Although it may not be permanent, the memory will forever be with you. And it reminds you that there is hope, and that there is a chance that things will get better. Simply a chance, but a chance you’re willing to take, anything for your happiness. And perhaps the world isn’t all better, and you’re still going to feel like shit a couple days later, but in that moment, you were happy. And that happiness alone makes up for all the times you’ve ever felt alone or like you weren’t worth it or things were never going to get better. It’s that moment of clarity when you realize that you can only get better, with challenge, but you truly can only get better. And you remember that no matter what, you will have more of these days, more of these luxuries that nobody can take away from you, more of these luxuries that make life worth living, worth fighting for.

2010-11-21T22:02:00.001+08:00

'What are you feeling? Lonely. Tired. Overwhelmed. Fatigued. Nostalgic. Sick. Nauseated. Like a fraud. For attempting to keep things together when in reality I’m crumbling. People shouldn’t admire me as they do. I’m just like them. Falling apart. A majority of the time, I’m okay. It’s the night that kills me. I hardly sleep. And it’s not really stress. More of an unquiet-ness. A restlessness. And it shakes me up so that it’s hard to just lay in bed and fall asleep, to shut everything out. I can never shut everything out. My mind is never quiet.'

I'm fighting

2010-11-17T01:48:00.001+08:00

'You know that feeling? When you’re just waiting. Waiting to get home, into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day. That feeling of both relief and desperation. Nothing is wrong. But nothing is right either. And you’re tired. Tired of everything, tired of nothing. And you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay. But no one’s going to be there. And you know you have to be strong for yourself, because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting. Tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else. Tired of being strong. And for once, you just want it to be easy. To be simple. To be helped. To be saved. But you know you won’t be. But you’re still hoping. And you’re still wishing. And you’re still staying strong and fighting, with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting. '

2010-11-07T19:22:00.004+08:00

Asking for a normal life a girl would want seem like an absurd request right now. I'll never get to experience all that attention I want, or need. I need more motivation to keep running this race. How do I do this?

2010-11-04T22:46:00.003+08:00

Did I go this far, only to realize that I'm back where I started?

reflection

2010-10-27T23:28:00.003+08:00

i've never felt so helpless, so beaten down, so drained out, so screwed up, so fked up, ever in my life- not even during A levels. i can't even get to sleep for a proper 6 hour now. i am surviving on 4 - 4.5 hr rest per day and it definitely is eating up my normal self. i seem to be always moody and worse still, i get irritated easily more than ever. so, i'm sorry friends, if i piss you off unintentionally or do anything stupid to spoil your day, please please forgive me. october has been one hell of a month for me and i'm really glad its coming to an end. i pray that november will be a much better month for me and catching up on school work will be possible.

ps: will do up my taiwan trip post when im freed from reports/quizes/work

2010-10-25T00:33:00.002+08:00

“The toughest sacrifices are the ones we don’t see coming, when we don’t have time to come up with a strategy to pick a side or to measure the potential loss. When that happens, when the battle chooses us and not the other way around, that’s when the sacrifice can turn out to be more than we can bear.”

2010-10-10T23:04:00.002+08:00

Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so that no one can hear you. I know what it is like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you want it all to end. I know exactly how it feels.

2010-10-09T16:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wish I never had somethings.
Because that way, I never would have to learn how to live without it.

Monster

2010-10-07T23:31:00.005+08:00

i'm in awe of what art students can do !!
px can change this creature :
to this:

then to this!!
and here's the final product. hehe. thanks px!

YAY. cute swim tee? heh.

Relationship(s)

2010-10-07T00:08:00.004+08:00

A friend once told me, we all get into a relationship with someone for the emotional support. But at times I really can't help but wonder - emotional support? Do I really get it?

Maybe I'm not as strong as I thought I was.

One week old

2010-09-28T19:35:00.004+08:00

so it's been one week since i've been attached to my new toy - my new bb :D
time to do a review since i've been a loyal iPhone user before this. and i only can say that there's good and bad points to owning a bb. and there are still points where iPhone definitely win bb hands down.

BB
cons
#1 con about a bb compared to an iPhone would be that you actually NEED energy to type. maybe i've been too used to a touch screen phone for too long =X but i'm really not used to it. and bcos of this, i type really slowly as compared to typing on my iPhone. so friends, you gotta pardon me for slow replies + typos (iPhone will usually auto correct it for me)

#2 con would be the brower interface. i very much prefer the just-touch-on-the-address-bar kinda thing. its so troublesome to move the cursor to the place and zoom and type.

#3 I CAN'T KEEP MY EYES OFF THE BB =X hahas. okay. this isn't exactly bb's fault. red was a bad choice for the flashing light. wahahaha.

now for the pros
#1 BBM's the best invention ever. especially for ldr. whatsapp still can't beat bbm. cause you can run multiple programs while being on bbm <3

#2 you can send pictures SO easily via bbm and save the file and resend it out! yayyyy.

iPhone
cons
#1 con is that it lags overtime. (ie. the touch screen loses its sensitivity)

#2 you can only run one program at one time. so say if i'm on whatsapp and go back to the main page, i will be "offline" on whatsapp. noob app.

#3 whatsapp isn't reliable at all.

pros
#1 best infusion of ipod + phone. no need to carry two items out :D

#2 typing's so effortless!! you just needa tap on the screen.

#3 going online can't get any easier.

hmmm. i guess that's all that i can think of now. but seriously, iPhone's much more idiot-proof than a BB. hahahaha. does this imply that only smart pple can use BB? maybe. must start being more intellectual!!

shall do so now by researching more on my project! :\
tatas!

Energy-less

2010-09-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

why is it that no matter how much effort i put into psycho-ing myself to love and enjoy whatever i'm learning, the result is always the same? the hatred for this course just increases exponentially. sigh. the amount of terms i don't get and the amount of missing links here and there, are enough to drive me nuts and make me feel like giving up. i should start counting how many times i breakdown in a sem, trying to absorb information i don't even comprehend. it just feels as through i'm thrown with more and more absurb terms i've never seen before even when i'm not done digesting whatever that has been taught a week ago. and now that its the fifth week into school, by the end of this week, i would have been lagging by 25 lectures. someone save me please. i'm literally drowning from an overload of information.

not forgetting my tuition classes that's stressing me out as end-of-year (EOY) and O levels are approaching. this means no chance of cancelled classes. stressful but a job which gives me a sense of achievement :)

and trainings for upcoming sunig and ivp. how to skip trng sessions when i know i need to go for them in order to not drown during the major comps :C i'm actually really fine with trngs, its just that i dont have a hall and travelling to and fro jurong is draining me out. imagine being in school from 8am-10.30pm?!?! i only reach home at 11.30pm at times. by the time i'm back, i wouldn't have time nor energy to even start mugging, even if i wanted too. this sucks. ntu suck.

and lastly, cotton on. i know its the least taxing job on me as for now. afterall i don't really have to use much brains to hang bras or fold the panties yea? hahas. but still, no matter how busy i am, i need to show my commitment if i plan to continue working there during my sch hols. and to be fair, we're all part-timers. who doesn't want more shifts during their holidays and less during school term? but i understand that the manger has to be impartial and give everyone a chance to work. she knows that we're all working to finance ourselves. i wish i could take a one month off and return to work in nov. bleah.

okay, enough of rantings. shall head to bed. a very scary week ahead awaits me. :C

Past

2010-09-23T22:24:00.003+08:00

Often we find ourselves moving on, but wanting to go backwards in time. We find comfort in what we’ve done in the past, and although we’re enjoying the present, we can’t stop thinking about how amazing the past was and how much we’d give to be able to go back. We want to make the best of now, but we just can’t seem to let go of the past. I guess looking back on the past is okay, but we should never live in the past. We need to make the best of today, because someday, today will become part of our past too.

2010-09-20T00:32:00.003+08:00

I know nobody said that it'd be easy.
I hoped that we'll find a way, make a way.
But you don't prioritize me.
How am i suppose to believe your games will never change?

HK Day 3 + 4

2010-09-17T23:31:00.010+08:00

finallyyyyy. its about time i complete my hk trip diary.
sorry if i bore you to death cause i'll be using the same pics as those on shar's blog! =x
even the content will be. i think. heh.

DAY 3
so anw, back to where i left off the last time. after our super tiring disneyland-day on day 2, we continued to show our youthful-ness (young pple have a lot of energy you see) by heading over to ocean park for more exhilarating rides and free sun-tanning(totally not planned). but before that, we recharged ourselves at pak hoi street - tsui wah restaurant. breakfast was always the most important meal of the day there cause we tend to have light lunch(s) at theme parks.

it was still gloomy in the morning and i thought it would be a rainy day yet again, just like how it was on day 2. but i was sosoSO wrong.

ohyes. shar can't stir her tea properly. hahaha! look at her cup!
the milktea in hk isn't like those in sg where the sugar's alrd included before they serve it to you. so we had to add whatever amount of sugar we need and mix it well before we get to drink it. and for two days straight, shar's cup looks like this - with milktea overflowing out. haha!
our very sumptuous meal :D

after breakfast, we headed back to the MTR so that we could take the public transport to get to OCEAN PARK ! :)
prior to day 3, summer warned us that it would be very very hot over at ocean park (and she only stayed there for 3 hours). so we were mentally prepared for a hothot day. but still, we didn't manage to tahan all the way. but we managed to stay there for a lil more than 6 hours. an achievement i guess? heh. cause the weather was so frigging HOT. waywayway hotter than sg. i felt like a melting ice popsicle there :\
oh and why we were so persistent on staying there for the whole day? same reason as it was for disneyland. entrance fee was another bomb. 225hkd (~40sgd) if i remembered correctly.

the park comprised of 2 parts. the summit and waterfront region. which technically is due to the geographical location of the park la. its pretty much built on a hill ? (actually, you can even see flats of houses on hills too) so if you can't build something on the equatorial position, you just have to do it laterally. hahas. and the hk contractors are pro at doing it i guess.
furthermore there's no way anyone can climb up and down the hill and enjoy the games at the same time, so there were many many LONGGGGGG escalators around the park.
happy us!
awesome view at the summit area.
we just walked around and played the rides in the park. explains the lack of pictures here. heh.

and through mid-day, we were so tired from the scotching hot sun and hungry. so we decided to sit down at the theater and catch a show! thats the pool for the superbly smart dolphins. didn't manage to take any pics during the show. too busy. heh.

after the show, we decided its time to head over to the waterfront area of the park to check out what entails for us there. we had to take this express train thingy, which was like a pseudo submarine 'train' that fetches us from the summit area to the waterfront area. cool much!

after we reached the waterfront station, we got off and walked around before settling at the main corner? to watch some acrobatic performance.
look at the goldfish! chubby cheek. just like me. hahaha!

after this photo, we took the express train back up to the summit area to finish up trying the rides that were closed in the morning.

us after the mine rollahcoaster!
we saw many pple holding this green coloured thingy ard the park the whole day but didn't want to buy it cause it was a lil overpriced. but with the crazy weather, we couldn't resist temptation and still gave in and bought a cup to share towards the end of the day. it was just H-E-A-V-E-N-L-Y!!
its some lime syrup blend thingy with cocktail in it. the first sip was mad good. ^^

after which, we took the bus back and headed over to mongkok for more shopping + BBT before ending the day.

we totally made use of the free internet over at the MTR since we found out about it on day 2! hahas.

DAY 4
we intended to make use of the rooftop pool over at the hotel in the morning on the last day, but we were so drained out after the crazy 3 days, both of us just snoozed our alarm clocks when it rang at 7. hahaha.
we woke up a lil later packed ,checked-out, collected our laopobings and left our luggages at the bellman(their version of bellboy) area before heading to the MTR to go over to central!

finally, we didn't have the same thing for breakfast again. hahas. but we settled for smth which we can find in sg -.- MACS.
shar ordered the norm meal while i decided to try their macaroni meal! not too bad. just too many peas. i had a hard time fighting the peas. :\

headed over to H&M after that and causeway bay for uniqlo for darryll's items before heading back! and H&M not cheap at all. but still manage to get a few good deals ;)

we were done early so we went back to jordon and settled dinner at tsui wah char chan teng again! hahas. this time round trying their other stuff other than breakfast.

then it was to the airport afterwhich. sad us :C
i miss hk.
hk was funnnnn! although i got sunburnt at my shoulders! i don't mind heading back there someday. during the cooler season tho. really can't stand the warm weather. :\

great! im doneeee. :D
but i've a lot of other things left uncompleted. like school work. procastination. sigh.
the next few weeks look bleak. weekends burnt by tuitions and weekdays - school + trainings + driving lesson. i needa catch up soon. stress :C

(Weak) Three

2010-09-12T21:06:00.006+08:00

ohmann. tmr marks the third week of school. it felt as though school started not too long ago, but i'm feeling stressed out by school work alrd. perhaps because im struggling to balance 4 tuitions, cotton on work plus school work?o.O 21AUs this sem with 6 examinable modules isn't exactly gonna be easy to juggle especially with the limited amount of time i have a day. sigh.
and, i don't know if i should be thankful i'm in a ldr or not. after all, i don't have to set time aside to hangout with my bf right? (sorry b. hahas.) other than say, skype and whatsapp. but i rather have him here with me still. its always a trouble to answer qns like "oh, you're attached? where's your bf? oh, what's he doing in us? when is he coming back?" i feel like im repeating the same old story to every new friend/friends' i haven't met in a long time. sucha naggy old lady. maybe i should just stick to. "nahh. im single." save me all the trouble actually. wahahaha.

oops, sidetracked a lil. bahh. anw plus omg, swim training's starting tmr. plus lab sessions' commencing from this week on. i really wonder how i'm gonna balance my timeee. i have too many things going on right now. i haven't even been doing things i enjoy - like partying, online shopping. i just don't have the time. but hopefully, the flowers will be up for partying this wed ;) time to let loose and have a lil fun before i get all sucked up by stress.

will finish up hk trip day 3/4 in the next few days if i can find time!
btw, anyone up for the movie 'going the distance' ? otherwise i'll just have to catch it aloneeee :C

“It’s possible to go on, no matter how impossible it seems, and that in time, the grief … lessens. It may not go away completely, but after a while it’s not so overwhelming. ” -Nicholas Sparks (Dear John)

HK Day 2 - Disneyland

2010-09-07T22:35:00.022+08:00

traveling really means lot of snapping, snapping and more snapping. i had a hard time trying to fish out this 80 odd photos for this post. maybe its just because i brought my sissy's slr for my hk trip this time round. having a slr with you prompt you to feel like taking more peeks cause you know it'll turn out well plus its so heavy to carry around - better make full use of it! hahas.

so, back to topic. day 2 was solely spent in disneyland hongkong! why? because the entrance fee was exorbitant?!?!?! even with the discount coupon, we got from buying the octopus card, the bill still came up to HKD320(~SGD60)each. of course we had to make sure we made our money worth. so typical singaporean. hahaha.

so morning started off with us having our set meals over at the hk cafe we found on day 1. we made sure we had a super filling breakfast, knowing that food at disneyland would cost a bomb. plus, we even dabao-ed buns from breadtalk for our 'cheap' lunch.

they have such cute mugs !
i think shar was qc-ing the photos from day 1.
so after breakfast, we headed off to take the MTR again to get to disneyland :)

the disney train we had to take to get to disneyland ! so disney-y. me likey! :DD

even the hand-bars (idk what's that called) is mickey-ear-shaped!
they also have disney character figurines inside the train. cool much. it really psych you up for the magical disneyland!
and after a long long journey, here we are! :D
but very unfortunately, the sky was so gloomy :C and sure enough, it rained that very afternoon and our moods were a lil dampen. but nevertheless, here are some pics :
it was only DRIZZLING,and you can alrd see people using their umbrellas.
we were greeted by mickey once we got in !
our first stop! shar wanted to get minnie ears to blend into the mood. and she managed to psych me into getting one too, so that she wouldn't be the only one looking retarded. hahas.
here's shar snapping away with her slr .

us camwhoring with our new minnie ears while waiting for the mascot to be out!
apparently, they have mascots going around at different hours throughout the day and we managed to catch this one after we got in ard 11 plus! lucky us!
so there was goofy.
mr incredible
sitch
ariel the mermaid
and the genie from Aladdin !
so after the mascots stopped dancing to the music, the kids were welcomed to join in with them to play some interactive games. see the amount of people. -.- so happened that it was their summer break. such bad timing. so as you can expect, more kids = longer queues for all the rides. we spend an average of 30 mins queuing for each ride. :\

our first stop within disneyland (there were 3 main 'land's - tomorrowland, adventure land and fantasy land) was TOMORROWLAND. as you could have guessed from the above picture, it was more of a space-y/futuristic land. hahas. where aliens exist and all.
our first ride! space mountain! IT WAS MAD FUNNNN. SCREAM-ING X932742674256238732
hahas!
we came out feeling slightly dizzy from all that spins. hahas.
then we headed off to try autopia. we though it was some bumper car game, but turns out it wasn't. but still as fun ! hahas. we had to queue for 45 mins for this! :\

see the yellow thingy behind me? we were suppose to drive that along a track. more like an autocar, but you cant not control the steering wheel. the whole car just goes bumping around. hahas. tried and tested by both shar and i. we thought the car would steer straight by itself (afterall its called autopia right?), but to our disappointment, it doesn't! hahas.

even their dustbin's so cute. so animated isn't it? hahas. singapore should make our dustbins look as cute as this!! maybe a litter-free singapore would then be possible. haha.
next up! adventure land! just as the name suggest, this was the forest-y land.

and another cool thing about disneyland. even their stalls changes accordingly to the different theme of the different land(s) they are at! its also true for the workers. so you can see them wearing different costumes all over disney. explains the need for expensive tix. a lot of effort has been put into disneyland, and of course a lot of money. ha.
shar
jungle river cruise was the first ride we took in adventure land! it was a ride around the waters and the 'tour guide' would explain the surroundings to us kind of curise thingy. somewhat like taking the tram around the zoo? anw there were 3 queues for this ride which provided 3 different langauges to suit the different needs of the patrons. the 3 languages was of course canto, chinese and english. since english was our preferred language, shar and i went to queue at the queue which stated 'english'. but God-knows-why, shar got stopped by the staff there reminding her that she was entering the 'english'-queue. HAHAHA. what a joke. maybe shar look too local. in any case, shar replied her in english ' i speak english.' (Y) i guess they stereotype all asian there to either be locals or from china. tsktsk.

we then explored around adventure land.

our next stop would be to visit tarzan's treehouse.
we had to take this boat across. which was kinda lame.

here we are!

they had short excerpts from the storybook all around the treehouse.

and after we were done with the treehouse, we decided to wait for the show! but unfortunately, after two dance, it began to drizzle - rain - heavy rain. it rained so heavily that most people were found gathered in the shops around. hahas.
since we were stuck too, we decided to take the time to snap some more pics. shar with minnie
and mickey, which resembled darryll.

after half and hour or so, the rain lighten a lil and we managed to get to fantasy land and tried on the carousel.

we were so tired out after which and decided to hide in the 'cafeteria' there while waiting for the rain to stop completely cause we couldn't use our slr in the rain. although being at a cafeteria, we didn't buy any food in there cause it was so FRIGGING expensive. we just munched on our buns from breadtalk. budget style. then rested for an hour or so.

finally the rain decided that it had enough of crying, we were able to try another ride within fantasy land. winnie the pooh ride!
pardon us for all the camwhore pics. they's what you do after getting bored queuing for a longgggg.

and finally, our last stop for the day! philhar magic! its the 4D show!!! mad cool! shar and i had NO idea it was 4D (that means it included the physical aspect). and when water splashed out for the first time, we got so panicky! cause we didn't keep our slrs in our bags! hahaha. noobs.

fantasy land. its actually the castle we always see in disney movies isnt it? pweetttyyyy.

we headed off to get a hotdog bun to share after the show cause we were hungry again. then to kill time before the fireworks display starts at 9pm, we decided to take a stroll down the 'main USA street'. the lightings are really pretty at night! it makes you feel as though you are living in theworld of fantasy. makes you feel like the little girl you were when you were young. i wish i could stay there forever mann. hahas. it just felt so magical.♥♥♥

we went into more shops. but actually, all the items sold within disneyland's pretty much the same. we just wanted the aircon. heh. i thought that this was like the best picture of the day! its as though shar owns everything behind her!! hahas. but in fact, i took it while no one was behind/around her.
i want thissssss! but it came with such an expensive price tag i didn't buy it. it frigging cost sgd 60!?!?!?

camera guy shying away. hahaha.

ohyes. we managed to take the train ride around disney before the fireworks display as well! :)
us looking spastic and so oily and all after a long day. hahaha.
afterwhich, we went to sit right in front of the castle like an hour early (kiasu sgreans) in hope that we could take some awesome pictures later on!
and here are some passable shots. hahaha. i dont think we managed to take superbly awesome shots :\

stupid line.
and there! we headed back to mongkok after this to get cheap noodles and bbt before heading back to our hotel to change and wash up for the night! all in all, i thought that disneyland was not too bad other than the bad weather we kena-ed this time round. and perhaps, going during the cooler season would be a better idea.

My heaven's with you.

2010-09-04T16:23:00.002+08:00

I read your text it made me smile.
But I ain’t had one for a while.
I know you’re asleep in this time zone,
But I’m still staring at my phone.
And you’re always there for me,
I even see you in my dreams.
I sacrifice my paradise,
My happy ending to believe.
Every day and every night
I’m wanting you, I’m wanting you I want you
And until the end of time
I love you I love you I love you

Year 2 + HK Day 1

2010-09-01T20:03:00.014+08:00

school have officially started on monday :C

however, i have to say that i did have a very fruitful and eventful 4 months vacation. having being able to travel to langkawi, bangkok and my most recent destination - hong kong.

for me, i consider traveling a luxury. cause after all, not everyone's that fortunate to be able to travel anywhere they want to, isn't it? its true even for me. there's so many other countries i would like to visit. but many at times, particularly when we're still young, money can be the constraint. especially when i don't come from a rich family (not that i bear any resentment to my parents). but at least, it teaches me to be more independent and work for what i want :)
that's why i am proud to be able to finance my own traveling expenses. it makes every trip so much more worthwhile and memorable. because i had to work hard, literally, and save up my 'salaries' to allow myself to enjoy each holidays. and i always have people asking me how do i actually finance all my trips. but the fact is, i don't spend a fortune on lodging and air tix.
maybe i shall share some tips i swear by:

#1 - PLAN EARLY. i cannot emphasize how important planning your trip WAYWAYWAY before you fly can help you save loads of $$$. and by that, i mean planning it more than 5-6 months ahead.
#2 - SIGN UP FOR JETSTAR MAILERS. this is only if you're not traveling to exotic places of course. check out if jetstar actually fly to the country you wanna head to. they always have friday sales fare and 1-for-1 air tix periodically :)
(ps: i got my air tix to taiwan in oct for only sgd350(1-for-1 deal), with 20kg check-in luggage, which roughly cost sgd800 now)
but i gotta warn you that even during 1-for-1, fastest fingers first is exceptionally important. somehow the price of tix starts to increase with time. hahas.
#3 - GOOGLE FOR CHEAP HOTELS. check out reviews and all before booking as well. but i am not one who actually demands for a 5 star hotel. i believe in saving money on lodging so that i can have more to spend during my trip :)
#4 - PLAN YOUR OWN ITINERARY. check out entrance fees of places of interest, as well as if they have free entry days :)

and that's about it. i enjoy free and easy trips and dislike joining tour groups because i dislike having to go by their schedule and waiting for people all the time. plus, half the time, its cheaper to go for free and easy tours. heh.

back to my hong kong trip. - Day 1
(will only blog about day 1 today. there's far too many pictures. hahas.)
planned this with bff since 2 years ago and finally we were able to make this plan work! plan= heading to hk tgt . had a few hiccups along the way.

so on the 23 aug at 4.40am we checked-in and had a hearty breakfast at macdonalds before heading over to the boarding gate to board our plane .
we knew we had a long day, so breakfast had to be heavy. and it was indeed heavy. we didn't feel the hunger till ard 6pm that day. hahas.

happy us with our boarding pass :DD

after approx. 4 hours, we finally reached HK airport and we took the train to our hotel.

they had super duper long travelators and their MTR (their MRT) is ridiculously HUGE. there are many 'dhoby exchange' within the transit area, cause they have far too many lines. hahas. it was fascinating at first, but throughout the days when we got more and more burn out, the walking seems to be more and more unbearable.
enthu first day!

and finally we arrived at - PRUDENTIAL HOTEL.
pweetty nots ?? hahas.
bathtub sia.
then it was off to mongkok after we've left our things at the hotel.
FIRST STOP - new town mall. a
and we had this YUMMY cold noodles which cost sgd 0.50 ! ♥
cheap grass jelly milk tea with ten times the standard of koi at only sgd 2.
shopped ard and left ard 5pm to head back to the hotel to change for our next stop - THE PEAK.

took the mtr to central and walked to the peak tram station. ohyes, we got some tourist concession mtr ticket which allowed us to take unlimited rides on the mtr. that helped us save a lot on transport fees.

YAY. we finally reached the stop!

got our tram + madame tussauds tix and got onto the tram. we had to queue for awhile tho. the weather was a killer mann.

reached the peak!
next stop - MADAME TUSSAUDS
we had a lot of fun in there! hahas. but shar didnt wanna try out some 'SCREAM' thingy inside with me :C

JAYCHOUUUUU ♥♥♥

we had fun with the costumes they provided. hehe.

photo-taking was not allowed in that shop actually. hahaha. but we managed to get these 2 shots before getting told-off. oops.

after we got out of the wax museum, our stomach finally realised that we haven't had any proper food. growls.
so we decided to settle for HK cafe, which was a lil overprice. i guess its because its a tourist attraction la.
but the portion was pretty huge. we felt like balls after dinner. hahas.

then it was to THE PEAK for some awesome night view of HK.
we had to pay extra to get up to the viewing gallery :C didn't check the tix properly earlier =X
but the view up there was worth it. very pwetty and cooling.
we were told that it would be very VERY cold at the peak. so we were both dressed for the occassion. lame. but it wasn't THAT cold actually. i had my trench coat on and shar had some wool-jacket on with boots. hahas. we forgot that its SUMMER. summer nights cant get that cold.
came down and back to hotel!
one last pic for the night.

Day 2- Disneyland. will blog about it when i find the time ! school's killing/boring me. and making me feel so broke :C just got 2 textbooks today and i could have bought at least 3 dresses with that moolah. sads.

i miss you :C

Down

2010-08-23T01:08:00.004+08:00

its another 6 hours before i'll be on the flight, on my way to hong kong. but i still don't feel the hype yet. maybe i just don't like the airport. i dont like leaving. i like to stay put at where i am. or maybe, i've said too many goodbyes. i kinda hate them now.

this is nothing about hk. its just that there's too many things happening recently and perhaps a bit of hormones imbalance. feeling a little down now. but i will get better. i know that, because once you reach the bottom, the only way out is to go - up.

i pray that hk will cheer me up. make me a lil happier as well.

It may have been in bits and pieces, but I gave you the best of me.

2010-08-17T18:25:00.003+08:00

You get in the biggest fights with the people you care about the most because those are the relationships you are willing to fight for.

2010-08-17T01:37:00.002+08:00

“ If I could explain love in one word, it would have to be trust. Trust that he doesn’t cheat on you, trust that he doesn’t lie to you, trust that he really likes you, trust that he will always be there for you, trust that he can go to a party and not get high or drunk, trust that you don’t have to worry about him breaking  up with you the second you wake up, trust that he will stick up for you, trust that he will never fall in love with another, trust that he won’t just get sick of you, and trust that he wants you like you want him. ”

Skype

2010-08-15T00:17:00.005+08:00

Hahas. I bet spencer didn't even know that i took candid pictures of him during our skype session earlier. But seriously, our rship has come to a point where we are surviving solely on skype sessions. (Other than msn )Which is pragmatically, the best solution for now.

Sigh. I still can't believe I've gotta learn how to deal with another LDR just 2 months into a rship. Not exactly the kind of rship I was expecting, especially not after how my first one ended. I guess we'll just have to take one step at a time and see how things goes. Maybe its just fate, I need to go through this no matter what. Perhaps the biggest test in my life.

In any case, I can't wait for him to get back to madison where he can use his data plan on the go and for me to get my BB soon so that i can no longer needa count on my untrust-y ebuddypro on my cui iPhone(i've dropped it far too many times :\) soon soon. i need sept to come soon! although that mark the start of year 2 for me in NTU.

Suck balls. I hate school. And I can't believe how 4 months passed by so quickly :C happy days are indeed short-lived. I need to party soon. A need to release a little emotion to make myself feel better.

'It really starts to hurt when I pretend it doesn't.'

[ps: help me click on the nuffnang advert on the left if you can! thankq! :) ]

2010-08-13T00:46:00.002+08:00

I've heard too many comments that tried to put me down. But that's not gonna deter me from fighting for what I think is worth it. It's all gonna be okay - as long as I stay strong.

Final moments

2010-08-03T00:49:00.013+08:00

summary for july :

main highlight - spencer's departure for the states for his studies.
i'm pretty sure i did enjoy the last few weeks together tho. we tried to spend whatever time was remaining for us, together. doing things we enjoy :)

like we went to JB twice for cheap good food + movie.
enjoyed his last clubbing session in sg, for a long while at least.
went for a double date with shar and D to the zoo (check out shar's blog for details)
the misc. gang planned a surprise farewell party for him as well. held at concorde hotel :) we had to tell so many white lies and loads of effort went into this event. hope you liked it !
had a few stayovers and took the bus together for the last time together, for a long while at least.
got a couple watch.
ate HK cafe with him for the last time, and joined the membership.

caught our last movie together, hot tub time machine, at amk hub.
ate his last ramly burger with him.
drank his last koi.
and it was about time for him to leave at the airport.

happy times are always short-lived. but he asked me to be strong and not to cry at the airport. so i did. but i don't know how long i would be strong for. i still cried before and after he left. D`:

how is it like for your loved one to be a thousand miles away from you all the time? how does it feel to have no one to warm you up at a cold cold mall? how does it feel to just wanna go out with someone for no reason but to spend time together, yet have no one to go with? i totally get it now. doesn't feel good at all. it sucks actually. to be be living in a different time zone and so far apart. it makes you feel so alone and it dampens your mood for many things.

nvm, ignore my rants. i just needa know that i gotta be stronger than this to over this. :\

'People asked me if he was worth it, if this was worth it. I said, the thing is, the happiness that I feel when I'm with him is unlike any happiness I have ever experienced. But the sadness that consumes me during the long periods when happiness is gone is unlike any sadness I've ever had too. It is bottomless and makes me feel hopeless and sad. And I can't decide which one is more affecting. Can I live without the happiness? Can I live without the sadness? Perhaps, I just can't live without him.'

2010-07-30T03:30:00.003+08:00

You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.

2010-07-21T02:38:00.001+08:00

heard this over at clicknetwork recently. i thought it was a very beautiful song :)

多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你

2010-07-19T02:19:00.003+08:00

I want to disappear. I want to turn myself inside out so that this soft, malleable physical is hidden away from the core, nestled safely beneath the roaring emptiness that sits inside my chest. I will take it and wrap it around myself, an impenetrable barrier of nothingness between myself and the world. I will hibernate under the weight of the void. I want to be utterly invisible.

Second

2010-07-17T03:55:00.002+08:00

Before I knew you , I was like a completely different person, really. I had seen what love could do to people, and it was hurt and sadness. Alone was better. And then, suddenly there was you, and you knew me. You saw me, and it was this thing. You make me feel safe and warm. So, I get it now, I finally get love, I really do.

Goodbye(s)

2010-07-14T01:01:00.002+08:00

The one thing I hate most is saying goodbye. It's never been easy for me, never will be. I mean, how do you approach the concept of goodbye? Goodbyes are all different. Some are for a day. Some are for a month. But others are forever. And the concept of forever is hard to accept. It's like, hey, I'm never gonna see you again, goodbye. It doesn't feel complete. But I think that's what goodbyes are. They are incomplete and you honestly don't know how long the goodbye will last. It's a part of life. A part of life I could do without.

2010-07-12T01:42:00.005+08:00

The thing about you is you're fun, you make me laugh, and you make me feel more alive. Okay, you make me a little crazy sometimes, but there are these moments in my mind, crystal-clear images of you and me and how we fit together, and it all makes such perfect sense, and I know what I want; I want more time with you.

Langkawi 10`

2010-07-02T01:01:00.017+08:00

so! i'm finally back from all my trip(s) for june. i'm partially sad and happy. glad that i'm back in sg where home is but missing all the sun, the sand, the beaches and just recently - shopping. will do another post for my bkk trip when i'm free again! :)
as for now, i'll just do a short update on my getaway with spencer to langkawi.

Day 1:

woke up bright and early on a tuesday morning to head down to T2 to meet spencer to check-in our luggages and then headed off to macs for breakfast before boarding the plane!
ohhhh. and i must mention that my whole holiday(s) have been spent spamming food. hahahaha. after macs breakfast, msia airline served us lunch on the way there. tasted so-so, but at least they had ferrero rocher to save them! haha. love ferrero rocher! ate spencer's share too. heh. oops.

at penang airport waiting!
we had to do a transit over at penang airport, as the plane doesnt fly directly to langkawi airport.
after 2 hours, we've finally arrived at our destination! :D
welcome drink at the hotel .
and here's our room! :)) we got the rainforest chalet, explains the forest lookalike setting! and seriously, there were LOTS of monkey outside our chalet, just like in the forest where animals are prevalent. and oh yea, the resort is so huge, to get to your room, you'll needa take the buggy at the lobby! cooliooooo! hee. by the time we settled down, took a short nap and bathed and all, it was close to dinner time alrd. so we decided on pahn-thai restaurant further down from our room for dinner.

the restaurant was on this floating platform thingy but very stable of course. and there were chalets on water!! so cool! but i guess they were more sexpensive too... hahas.

the scenery was SOSOSOSOSOOOO GOOD. but when it got later and later, the sea breeze kinda get a lil too chilly for me. but still... the ambiance was 10/10!! hahas. but the food took longer than usual to be ready. i guess its just not langkawi's culture to be efficient, afterall its a place for people to get away from the buzzing cities. not forgetting to mention, the sun only seems to go down at langkawi ard 8pm. maybe bcos its too close to thailand alrd. hahas. lagging one hour behind.
headed back to the room after which and caught abit of autumn's concerto before we both were knocked out for the night. heh.

Day 2:

a very busy day ahead of us! cause we only planned for a 3D2N trip, the second day had to be best made used of! we booked for the island hopping tour before we left for singapore and the person was suppose to pick us up from out hotel early in the morning. we woke up late and had only half an hour for breakfast which was damn SAD case luhhh. it was buffet breakfast!! with HELL LOADS of yummy goodies !! :C prata/omelette/french toast/ pancakes/ pastry etc etc. we just stuffed whatever we could into our stomach before the service staff came to over table to inform us that the driver was at the lobby waiting for us alrd!??! most stressful breakfast ever.

so we got on the speed boat and headed off to island hop! :D

first stop! dayang bunting!

these monkeys are MONSTERS. they literally just snatch any plastic bag they see pple holding. evil monkeys! there was this lake at the top of dayang bunting, where we climbed up too, and we happen to witness this monkey snatching a lady's handbag causing her to fall into the lake while 'fighting' with the monkey... and her poor bag dropped in too... imagine your phone/passport/impt documents all wet, all thanks to a monkey... poor lady. oh, and she's an Arabian i think. so she was fully wrapped up and drenched. gross much.

second stop was a lil more boring... they just drove us to this ulu island where all the eagle residence at. and that was the eagle feeding session.

last stop! i've no idea where this is, but its a beachhhhhh! with sand and the sun! hee. and altho the water does look blue from my pictures, it isnt. its green still. just clearer than the sg waters. hahas.

pweettty seashells!
spencer totally tortured this creature until he was able to take this photo mann. terrible boy. tsktsk. but a very nice shot still. XP

after the last stop, we headed back to the hotel to change out to rush to the underwater world! and to save more money on transport, we shared to rent a car, of course with spencer driving, to roam ard langkawi ! :D quite a fun experience even tho there were so many cock-ups. like having no fuel, the driver's seat belt's totally CMI, no airbag, dented rear on both sides of the car and cracked side mirror. impressive how spencer even manage to drive the car sia. hahaha.

anw, we were so busy until we forgot about lunch!! so before heading to the underwater world, we decided to go look for makan makan! found this ulu 'kopitiam' near the underwater world and decided to settle for it. food was cheap and good! yummeh! :)

UNDERWATER WORLD! :D
HUGEASS FISH.

that's a snake btw.

sting-ray!! (i think it looks better cooked, with sambal chilli on top. heh. )

spencer was touching some sea cucumber. eewwww.
pwetty jellyfishes!!
us in the very cui car. hahaha.

spencer drives w/o this slippers on. tsktsk!

after underwater world, we headed off to the eagle square where the langkawi's icon was at.

he's trying to tickle the eagle, apparently failed.
i likie this pic. see the aura? hahaha.
best shot of the trip!
dinner time after that! we headed off for zhi-cha at some night market, which closes so early -.-
on our way back to berjaya!
Polaroids for this trip! :D (credits to my sissy whom lent me her polaroid cam! )
OHYES. langkawi is a DUTY-FREE ISLAND. hahahaha. so we couldnt help it but bought a few miniatures back to the hotel to drink! heh. with julies biscuit. supperrrr! heh.

Day 3:
more evidence of monstrous monkeys outside our rooms...
breakfast!! we ate a lot more this time round :DD since we had more time and didn't have to rush anymore. i miss buffet breakfast:C

had to return the car before we head off to the airport and here's the crack on the side mirror... didnt have time to take pictures of the other damages. its really epic fail car.
headed off to the airport thereafter!
here's spencer trying to entertain me by being gay. flower clip rocks still ! XP

more ferrero rocher on the way back!! HAHAHAHA. :D

so we reached sg in the evening and went for dinner at popeyes before slacking a lil at starbucks and heading home after the peak period was over.

i'm missing my holidays nowwwwww :C next trip would be to hk with shar in aug! i can't wait alrddddd :DDDDD

(p.s: if you realised, spencer wore the same grey tee for two days straight!!)
(p.p.s: i took more than 3 hours just to collage all the photos. -.-, another 2 hours to write the other crap. i am a slow blogger. fail.)

2010-06-20T01:23:00.000+08:00

Someone who feels for me.
Who's constantly in love with me.
And cares for me.
Someone who won't say goodbye.
Someone who can change my life.
I hope its you, I hope its you.

First

2010-06-16T01:18:00.000+08:00

“Love is a funny thing. You expect it to be easy. You expect it to be a world of roses and laughs and perfect moments that you find only in movies. You expect him to always say the right thing, and always know exactly how you feel, or exactly how to react to it. You expect him to calm you down when you’re yelling or to chase you when you run away. You expect so much that you feel entirely, and utterly defeated when something doesn’t exactly match up with all your plans. But that’s the thing, love isn’t a plan. It doesn’t have a certain beginning and it certainly has no end or visible finish line to those deeply in it. Love happens, and it is so incredibly messy. ”

2010-06-13T14:14:00.003+08:00

did i ever mention i hate people with low EQs. they seriously piss the hell out of me. its like, if you choose to use those hurtful and insensitive words on others, i could use it on you too. but to use it on you just brings me down to your standard. its far too easy to be insensitive and spurt out words in seconds but did you ever realise that it could take a long time for that someone to walk out of that hurtful experience, just because of what YOU said without sparing a thought for them. you need to have a taste of your own medicine.

and cmon, we now live in the 21st century and everything changes, especially with time, change is the only constant we are left with. it's annoying how someone refuse to acknowledge the fact that i am entitled to live my own life and decide how i should be able to make my own decision. stop trying to do the mind games with me. i dont take that shit.

hate it hate it hate it.
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